Please help me make sense out of my life because I am so confused. I was s*xually assaulted by a close friend. He held me down and practically performed s*xual acts on me.
I had to go into hiding away from him because I was so ashamed. Never even knew I was assaulted until I went online and researched the signs.
I decided not to pursue it. We returned to being friends and I tried to block out that memory.
Yet he was concerned that no one should hear about it. He even called me sometimes to help quell the rumours when it was spreading.But I am the victim here!
How can I deal with the loss of friends after 5 years in school? Where do I start from? Why is everyone seeing me as the accused instead of the victim?